Thursday, January 18, 2007
{ 5:48 AM }
sometimes i really dread thursday..this feeling has lasted for as long as i know..yet i cant seem to find a way to put an end to it. i..feel so tired now. i just want to lay on my back and rest properly. i know it's not those everyday's work that is making me feel so tired, but that. look, there's homework and cca to juggle. and i guess cca has been taking up a great deal of time. sometimes i just feel too tired to go. it's an excuse. i know. but i really cant help it..the thought of going home after a day's school is really tempting. i can see that nobody understands me or even try to understand me..maybe i am not worthy of their understanding. i myself feel that i'm really irresponsible..but..i just dont have the strength. forgive me. besides, i dont find laughter and joy there..it's not those happy moments i have there. look into my eyes..they are not filled with joy, but desprate call for help. just hope for those days to end. i think the pace is getting faster..there's more hw each day, but it's ok. i dont mind it at all..lalala~i love wednesdays(: hate thursdays and fridays.